The Moos.

Saturday, December 24, 2005

merry christmas everyone((:
guess everyone is happily celebrating christmas now..
hoho.

bleah. not in the festive mood at all.
the thought of tuition tomorrow at 9.30AM just spoils my mood.
and im stuck here doing tuition homework.
how great is that.
left with lots of tuition work.
hopefully i'll be able to finish by next week.
so that i can start a new year afresh(:
oh! and that dreaded COMMONWEALTH ESSAY.
i havent even touched it yet can.
i kept on telling myself that im going to do it today.
atleast start with the introduction.
HOWEVER. i havent written a single word yet.
shitty.

sigh.
feeling really down nowadays
FOR NO GOOD REASON.
urgh.
im just losing my purpose of life.
actually.
whats my purpose of life?
this hols have turned out to be preety meaningless.
im so disappointed with myself.
especially for dance.
i wanted to be able to do a straight split by the end of this hols.
but its not even improving one bit):
especially since i injured my right leg early this holiday..
i couldnt do practically EVERYTHING.
i cant do splits.
i cant even kick my leg more than ninety degrees.
especially when there is bai lao shi's lesson.
make me feel so lousy because i cant do everything properly.
my injured leg would just prevent me from doing everything!):
and its not even healing lah.
WHAT A LOUSY HOLIDAY.
and i didnt get to hang out much with my friends.
time just seemed to fly by.
all i remembered was
3 days of working.
7 worthless days to beijing.
er... 12dance practices.
2 concerts.
a day of choral night.
a night of fundraising.
6 days out with friends.
and caught 3 movies.
actually two. since i went to watch harry potter twice.
OH.and lots of tuition.):
horriblehorrible.

next week is going to be a really busy week.
here's what im planning to do.
Sunday: tuition, Commonwealth Essay
Monday: Commonwealth Essay, tidy room
Tuesday: Tidy room, library cip
Wednesday: out with p6 classmates
Thursday: Commonwealth Essay(Let mr tan review), Tidy room.
Friday: Iceskating with friends
Saturday: Tidy room, wrap books(ohman! i havent bought my books yet!). English tuition homework
Sunday: Commonwealth essay, english tuition homework.
Monday: FREE!((: I WANT TO GO OUT:D

haha. everything seems the same for everyday right?!
but i procrastinate ALOT.
and everyday i'll only do a little work.
hehheh.
and im hoping to give tuition a miss for the whole of next week.
hopefully my tuition teacher agrees.
mr tan was nice enough to stop tuition for the whole of next week.
and there's no dance next week too.
lucky. atlast i can let my leg heal((:
hmm. actually im kindof free lah. hor?
HAHA. (:
yay. i feel so much happier now!
oops. better get back to work.
hurhur

MERRY CHRISTMAS!
HOHOHO.

mmooooooo-oooo..--*
|22:16|
Tuesday, December 20, 2005

i was happily planning to do my tuition work.
when i incidently came across my brother's blog.
SPOILT MY MOOD CAN.

i know that you hate this family.
i now that you hate everyone in it.
you want to crush them into sand
you want them to perish before your eyes.
you hate it because you think that they are bias.
you hate it because you think that no one understands you.
you hate it because you arent given the freedom that you long yearn
and you hate it because you cant get your way.
but have you asked yourself WHY?

i shall answer it for you.
they are bias because they lost your trust.
do you know how many countless times you lied when you were young.
havent you heard of the boy who called wolf?
everything started from the day you lied.
when you lied. you lost their trust. and you lost mine.
when that happens. you'll just be locked up with no freedom
even like you said.
youre just going to your friends house.
how do we know whether its the truth?
i do agree that they are quite bias.
like i cant sense it.
but youre not the only one who has to beg just to get out of the house.
i do have to beg too you know!
and in p6 i only went out ONCE.
and i keep to my word.
when i say that i'll be back at 5. I WILL.
and i dont always bring my friends home.
and usually taking a cab too.
maybe you had your reasons.
but are those reasons true?
the other times i went out was to a friends house.
and they would fetch me to and fro.
so they know where i am.
they know that i wont come to any danger.
besides. they know my friend's parents!
you think you cant get your way but we can?!
let me tell you youre absolutely wrong.
you cant get a guitar like i cant learn ballet!
all is fair and square.
did you know how much i begged to take up ballet?!
but they just didnt agree. but wanted me to take piano instead?!

well. all i have to say is that.
if you want back your freedom.
prove that we can trust you.
prove to us that you can keep to your word.
one of the problems is that you dont do your homework.
do you know that youre the only one who have teachers always calling home
and even looking for me because of your school work?!
prove to us that you are clear of what youre doing!!
and that youre diligent enough to finish your work.
and not always lying and say that youve finished when you actually have not.

sorry for invading into your privacy.
but after reading your blog.
i felt that you know whats right from wrong.
but if you can make us trust you.
we would gradually understand you.

but maybe your hatred is on a point of no return.
then i just have to wish you goodluck.
hope that you can save enough money and run away from home.
hope that you have the money to change a family.
if that is what you really want.
its your life anyway
i bet you hate me like hell now that you just want to stab me to death.
all i have to say is that.
this is not totally your fault.
neither is theirs.
both parties are at fault.


sorry. no mood to reply taggs anymore)):

mmooooooo-oooo..--*
|22:31|